Aware of the Unspoken

A world with optimism still has the ability of constantly leaving an uneasy feeling in your body. I will never understand why the best people get treated the worst. I will never understand why so many mishaps happen to the best people . Everyday someone is curious as to why something happened. A loved one is withdrawn from your life, your whole world feels desolated. You break a bone and your athletic career is over, your life becomes isolated from hope.

It is shocking to the human eye when you see someone smiling after they just lost one of the most influential people in their life. Walking through life with a smile, treating the deserved ones so kindly, and being a commendable person overall. Is it simple to live a challenging life with no spite? Is it simple to sail through life without shedding a single tear?

You wake up one day expecting to live another typical day. You have breakfast, you leave for school; you come home to the most heartbreaking news of your existence. You swallow the tears and it doesn’t hit you till you’re laying in bed at night. You realize you just lost the most important person in your life; you don’t even know what to do with yourself. The following days consist of waking up and just wanting to fall back asleep and worry about nothing.

Sitting at a viewing, holding back this overwhelmed feeling of sadness trying to keep yourself stable for your loved ones around you. You don’t realize it but lilies fill the room. Representing the innocence of the one who left your side. In a world with an unexplainable amount of misfortune it is necessary to keep that purity and majesty of ones life. All you wish for is that person to be back in your life. They no longer get to see you grow up or see your kids grow up; who knew this day would come so soon.

Typical day at practice and you feel the worst pain radiate through your foot. Your coach quickly recognizes the pain in your face and in that same moment you have this feeling you can no longer play the sport that keeps you sane. Why do some have to live without some of the most simple things in life that make them so happy.

Everyday an incident happens to thousands, or even millions of people throughout this world. Living in a world with so much fear a smile can cover it all. Who knew the happiest girl/boy walking through school was suffering from one of the most heartbreaking experiences right in front of your own eyes?

A letter to my future self 

I do not know how to start this because it is irregular writing to a person who will have the same skin and bones but a slightly altered mindset; also known as me. The first question I ultimately want to know is, how are you? I hope to be reading this again when I have graduated college and am on to living the dream I have always wished for.

I hope you enjoyed college although you danced the entire time and feel like your body can no longer move. You were probably very focused in your studies and never had too much fun in the evening hours because you were more interested in waking up hangover free. Well, hopefully you did not get injured throughout college and if you did then you are probably onto the business side of the arts. No matter what I hope you love what you are doing.

Maybe by now you have found your soulmate and you have your life figured out because since 16 you’ve been saying you are ready to live the “adult life.” At least at 16 you no longer wanted 18 kids like you did when you were 8 years old. Although you may not have figured your life out and may not be settled down, don’t lose hope. Finding your future husband may have been an unrealistic thought for a young adult coming out of college, but you most likely have encountered a few heartbreaks by now. Don’t let that get you down because your parents have showed you there is hope; that one day you will find true love. Do you remember how your grandpa told you to choose wisely before you get married? Well if you don’t you are now remembered because grandpa always knew best. The rest of your family always wanted the best for you too, never forget that.

Now that you have a degree leading you to the profession you have chosen, most importantly I hope that you are happy. I hope you have moved on from the high school drama that always seemed to make you feel as your past would forever haunt you. I wish you the best with all your future endeavors. Remember to be your own person, with your own thoughts, and your own views.

The last question I would like to ask is, do you feel you made it? When reading this in 2021 I hope you respond and title it “A letter to a younger me.” A younger me with an old soul and a lot of hope in a world full of suffering and overcoming.

Puppy or Toddler

Training a dog is very difficult. Every day I am teaching him to not pee in the house or to not eat everything he sees. I am constantly pulling different things out of his mouth or taking the shoes away from him. His favorite thing to do is run around the house with a cat toy. I do not think he can have enough toys to play with. The moment my mom comes home I am always so excited for her to watch him because he takes all of my energy. The other day I gave him his first bath. He went from the size of a small bear to a wet little mop. Nothing can make me happier than my puppy but he has come to show me how much work kids are because I don’t know if i’m training a puppy or raising a child; maybe I am doing both.